Volume 1

0    Prologue  ~
1    Letraset  ~
2    The Carpet  ~
3    Mazzy  ~
4    Devotee
5    Rosina's Demons
6    The Hierarchy of the Universe
7    Starting Over
8    The Chasm
9    The Kronecker Delta
10  The Bookmark
11  The Wedding Dress
12  The Soliton
13  Daddy


Volume 2

0    Prologue
1    Gabriel
2    Lamorna
3    Fantasy
4    Bill Gates' Rug
5    Spoons and Candy Canes
6    Wasting Time
7    Beautiful Hubris
8    Puny, Puny, Puny
9    Regression
10  1851 (The Great Exhibition)
11  Lamorna Weeps

Volume 3
Volume 4
Volume 5


   




CHAPTER TITLE  Mazzy
AUTHOR 
Selina Apostol
COPYRIGHT
2005 Selina Apostol

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS


PERMISSIONS
All text copyright as above.

CHAPTER NOTES
Patterns in this volume: Mazzy's countdown.

ILLUSTRATION NOTES
The telephone is a black rotary phone. Bedroom is a typical bedroom. Nightstand etc. Fantasy sequence to add to bottom of chapter. 

(Parentheses signify thought balloons)

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1996.
Interior: Nanette's bedroom. She is in bed, talking on the phone to her friend, Mazzy. 

MAZZY 
So, one down,
11 to go. 

NANETTE
Don't be like
that, Mazz.

MAZZY
So where 
does he live 
now? 

NANETTE
I don't know. 

MAZZY
Didn't you
ask him?

NANETTE
( Yes. ) No.

MAZZY 
Why not?

NANETTE
( Because that counts
as a real thing, and we don't
talk about real things. )

I don't know,
it didn't come up.

MAZZY
( You had a row. )

( Be careful Nanette.
Don't be trying to
get him back. )

So why didn't
you ask him, then?

NANETTE
Oh, he had one of
those drastic mood
changes.

MAZZY
( Okay. )

And as usual, 
you let yourself be 
swept along.

You have to
learn to be a little
mean, Nanette. It would
keep him on his toes.

NANETTE
I don't know.

I was a bit moody myself.
And anyway your advice -

( is just typical )

It's too much like being...artful.

I could never behave 
like that.

MAZZY
Artful?

( Here we go 
again, laloushka. ) 

( You and 
your scruples. )

( Your preoccupation with purity
is why you never survive. ) 

( Look at you. You're
a mess. Again. )

Nanette, this is the
way to live with a man.
Never treat him as an equal.
It's the same as giving a child
the upper hand.

It's a very stupid
thing to do.

NANETTE
No, Mazz. That way is all just
art. I don't like it.
  
MAZZY
( Lalousinka )

Forget
about art. I'm
talking about...

Self preservation.

Life skills.

NANETTE 
( Oh, life skills. ) 

Maybe it means 
I end up the fool every
time.  But I don't want
those skills.

MAZZY
( Oh you self-righteous child! )

( Haven't you learned anything? )

You want to look at it as being...
manipulative. The truth is it's just
pre-emptive. 

You dominating him
could never result in the
kind of misery and confusion
that him dominating you would
bring – has brought!

NANETTE
Please, you know my mind's pretty
much made up on these things.

MAZZY
(You like to paint men as victims.
In the meantime you have wasted your life
brooding over their selfishness  – 
the selfishness of – children!)

NANETTE 
It's just that your way feels like...it's all too much
at the expense of...of—

MAZZY
Of what?

I don't 
understand  
you, Nanette. 

When will you discover  
what a simple animal  
a man is? 

NANETTE 
( I know you're  
right, Mazzy
. )  

( You must be. )

( It's just that...)

( I knew you... )
 
( before you learned to talk that way ... )

( without a hint of sadness. )

( But I know you're right. ) 

MAZZY
Hello? 

NANETTE

– She walks over to the window.


ADDITIONAL NOTES